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Tuesday, 30 September 2003

RHCP: sometimes i feel like my only friend/ is the city i live in/ the city of angles.... damn good song. i believe good music is music that you will be able to listen to your entire life and appreciate... this is why i believe rap will fade out like disco. i think i am in the first generation to really popularize rap and i can just see it... 60 years from now my friends put on their eminem in front of their grandchildren... imagine... this is proof enough that as catchy as rap can be it is not good music.

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 21:10 | link | comments

i was wondering if you could get like a column for comments on the side rather than having people post them with your post?

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 01:29 | link | comments (6)

U2: where the streets have no names.....  so it is funny they scheduled the homecoming dance right after the game not only will it only be like an hour long but honestly now who is going to go... i'm not going... i'll be tired and want to go to sleep not to mention if we lose no one else on the football team is gonna want to go (if they wanted to go in the first place considering we have to get up the next day for practice).... the cross country team also has a meet the next morning and the band will be performing at the game... so that leaves the golf team and the volleyball team that isn't doing stuff (although i believe the volleyball team may have a game.. not sure).  so it will be funny when the school spends all this money on a dj and no one shows up lol.... stupid school... but entertaining to watch it flail around helplessly stupid.

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 01:13 | link | comments

ahh bnl: it's been one week since you looked at me....

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 00:43 | link | comments

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 00:42 | link | comments (1)

so this week is homecoming week and because of that it is also spirit week.  each day has a theme.  today's theme was superhero day.  my friend greg decided that he would dress up as the, one and only, jesus christ "superstar".  it was definitely amusing.  he executed various miracles throughout the day including turning channel one off.  (ahh babylon:  friday night i something something something... good song).  though the most exciting moment of the day was lunch and the superhero competition.  everyone in lunch cheered for their favorite superhero.  jesus (aka. greg) barely beat out STUPENDOUS MAN (for those of you who remember your calvin and hobbes) to be the all time reigning superhero of highland high.... ahh jesus lol.

posted by myblog, September 30, 2003 00:30 | link | comments (2)

Monday, 29 September 2003

spend all your time waiting/ for a second chance.... a really good song indeed.

posted by myblog, September 29, 2003 01:40 | link | comments (1)

ok i was just reading someone else's blog and it gave me inspiration for an entry. in fact my third entry in about the last ten minutes lol. have you ever had a dream you wished you had never woken up from? many times i have had dreams that i was woken from and i tried so hard to go back to sleep and recapture the dream but i have never been able to do it. not to long ago though i had a dream, a very special dream, everything was perfect. i can not explain why or how but everything was perfect. i could not have been happier. nothing could have been better. it was all perfect. then i woke up.

posted by myblog, September 29, 2003 01:27 | link | comments (2)

it would be nice if you readers would answer my questions. they are not rhetorical. i really want to know what you think

posted by myblog, September 29, 2003 01:20 | link | comments

had a weird experience with blogging today.  i was looking at a blog done by a girl that is obsessed with my friend greg and i discovered that not only did she have a blog on that site with greg but so did another one of my friends, teri.  so after discovering her blog i experienced a little deja vu (sp?).  it had dreamt (sp?) reading her blog (the exact same situation and feelings) before.  ever have that happen?  dream things before you do them.  i think it is rather odd but i believe the explanation is that i have dreamt something similar before and because of the vagueness of dreams and the closeness of the experience my brain says they are the same.  hmm weird nonetheless.

posted by myblog, September 29, 2003 01:19 | link | comments

Sunday, 28 September 2003

we won a game!! yay.  so what do you do with someone that refuses to stop arguing with you?  i just mock the whole argument.  i mean no matter what you say they just keep right on talking so what do you do?

posted by myblog, September 28, 2003 02:01 | link | comments (1)

Saturday, 27 September 2003

fuck football... four more weeks... it just ruined my weekend.  can't really do anything.  although i am hoping my original plans for tonight are just moved back till after the game... i hope.  last night was not a good night.  i could feel my attitude snowballing down hill until the point that i was going to feel like putting a hole in my head.  so i decided the best thing to do before i got to that point would be go to sleep and start new today.  i feel alright today.  hopefully the game goes well. alright well off to watch the other game.  Go bucks!

posted by myblog, September 27, 2003 15:36 | link | comments

Thursday, 25 September 2003

...ever notice how many fucking periods i use...

posted by myblog, September 25, 2003 01:14 | link | comments (2)

so our "band" finally got drums and now we actually have almost two songs yeeha.  i really like the one.  it is soft and sorta slow... sorta sad?  it is nice though... i think what gives us potential is how we aren't going to be just another garage punk band. we aren't all fast and hard.  and we also don't just sing about relationships and girls.  fuck that shit... whiny bastards... ever notice you keep having the same problem over and over again lol.  sorry  i have a distaste for emo. 

posted by myblog, September 25, 2003 01:14 | link | comments (1)

Monday, 22 September 2003

a little story i wrote awhile ago.  i encourage everyone to comment on what they think it means if they would like.

posted by myblog, September 22, 2003 00:59 | link | comments

There was something about the girl no one ever understood. I would watch her doodle in class, not paying any attention to whatever irrelevance was being taught. No one ever talked about her because from most people’s points of view there was nothing to talk about. She was another nameless face that took up space and wasted oxygen in a school of nobodies obsessed with their own lives.

When she went home at night her parents asked her "How was your day?". Of course they always received the same response, "Fine.", and watched her climb the stairs slowly to be alone in her room. She probably listened to music or wrote. When she wrote she would spend hours on long dramatic stories of lonely, abused children that grew up to make millions of dollars and gain fame and fortune. Some days she would work on homework, making sure to maintain a B average in order to attend a state school and get a good job. She was told how important a good job was so that she could buy things and be a productive member of society.

She attended the church regularly with her entire family. She sung all the hymns half-heartedly and attended Sunday school but always seemed as if her mind was elsewhere. Still though she attended regularly and whenever asked, claimed she was a devout Christian. It was very important to be faithful because it is what good, successful, morally-sound people are. Also the Lord helps everyone through their hard times because He loves everyone.

One day though she wasn’t another nameless face. For one day everyone talked about her

and the irrelevance being taught seemed especially irrelevant. Her parents didn’t ask her that day "How was your day?". Her parents didn’t go to work that day either because of her, becoming very counter-productive for society. The Lord was not there for her that day, He watched as she committed the sin. The next day everyone had forgotten about that day except her parents but even her parents memory of that day faltered in time. People might ask "Why?" when they read this but they possess the answer to that question within themselves. After all, how many of those people will remember this story a day, a month, or a year from now?

posted by myblog, September 22, 2003 00:26 | link | comments (2)

Saturday, 20 September 2003

the bucks yet again barely pulled off a win... i think they aim to give their fans heart attacks.  my team lost yet again last night and our stupid offensive coach chose to go for it twice on 4th down when we were in my range.... i've been kicking for 3 years and i'm the most accurate kicker in our league but i've never been given the opportunity to kick a field goal...  so as long as i'm bitch about my coaches i will say what i was going to write a few days ago.   well last weekend i was at my grandpa's memorial service.  we left the wednesday and got back saturday so i missed three practices and a game.  when i got back my coaches made me run for missing practice.  their explanation was i had to make up for the conditioning i missed... i forgot how much stamina it took to kick a ball.

posted by myblog, September 20, 2003 18:07 | link | comments (2)

Friday, 19 September 2003

i was talking with josh today about his girlfriend.  he was saying how this coming summer should be real nice with them but bittersweet knowing they won't see eachother again... it is very true, sorta brought me down a little cause it got me thinking of stuff.  so when i was driving i put glycerine on... one of the greatest songs of all time.

posted by myblog, September 19, 2003 01:21 | link | comments (1)

Thursday, 18 September 2003

sigh... why no one interesting lives around here i can not understand.  yes i still believe the worst feeling in the world is feeling all alone. 

posted by myblog, September 18, 2003 01:25 | link | comments (1)

Wednesday, 17 September 2003

well what a day in gov.  i tell you what i get really sick of ignorant bastards.  everyone should be required to pass some sorta test before they are allowed to participate in a debate on any certain subject.

posted by myblog, September 17, 2003 20:15 | link | comments (3)

i have no idea how my three friends talk about doing something and then every single one of them forget about it and do something else, after already saying they didn't have anything else to do when we all talked about it.  that really pisses me off.  i mean the least you can do after saying "yea i can do that" when you want to cancel is call and tell me you have something else to do.  it just pisses me off when i finally call and find out they have done something else.  the worst part though is that they have done this multiple times.  and they have done it to eachother when i've been with them.  i remember i was asking for one of their cell phones once to see if alex wanted to come with us (me josh and greg) and they were just like no!.... it was pretty stupid.  so instead of doing something i fell asleep at ten while i was warming up my dinner in the microwave and then woke up at 830 and forgot it was getting ready and fell back asleep and woke up at 10... i must have been real exhausted.  plus i feel like i wasted this whole night.  come to think of it i'm always the one that asks "hey why don't we call so and so" to make sure no one is left out.  i remember once when i ditched greg but i had made it clear to him that i didn't want to do what he was doing and i called him after i found something else to do.  man i just really need new friends.  unfortunately i can't just get rid of them cause they make highschool half-tolerable even if they are terrible friends.

posted by myblog, September 17, 2003 00:48 | link | comments (1)

Tuesday, 16 September 2003

so today wasn't too bad... two friends ditched me which is ok i guess cause now i can make a point with my mom.  it is much easier to teach your mom a lesson when you don't want to do anything.  so another problem has arisen. i have to figure out how to make it through the rest of this month with 9 dollars.... this will be difficult but i'm an expert bum.  which leads me to this.  i figured out a way to live comfortably without a job.  first, after graduating highschool you drive somewhere south with 5 sets of clothing (one nice set) and something warm to wear and toiletries. this should all be able to be held in a backpacking backpack or something similar.  once you get somewhere far enough south that it is pretty warm all year around you sell your car and keep that cash.  now you also need to be living in a fairly good sized city.  now you use your cash for food as long as that will last.  this should be able to keep you going for a long time because you must eat at fast food.  with a drink and something small you can eat for less than a dollar at most places.  you only eat two meals a day so that is 2 dollars a day.  as soon as you get there though you must start scouting out places to sleep.  this won't be a big deal because it will be warm enough at night you won't have a problem sleeping on the streets and cops rarely arrest people for that, just tell them to leave or move.  so once you have that figured out you need to start meeting people.  scout out local places that "well off" people eat or meet.  begin introducing yourself but mention that you are traveling right now and mention how you work for something that has a lot of integrity but practically no pay.  (like a habitat for humanity volunteer) start asking for phone numbers.  after getting the phone numbers of about 10 people you can begin calling and asking to stay with them cause you are in town for business and don't have anyone else to stay with.  don't ask anyone person to stay with them more than twice a year.  and make sure you do lots of chores and are a good house guest while staying.  this will get you off the street and they will probably feed you.  i would say ideally only stay with them for 2 or 3 nights at a time.  so eventually you will keep adding to your list of people to stay with until you have enough people to stay with for all year.  now any time that you aren't stay with someone you need to find get togethers or parties (funerals, weddings, graduations etc).  eat the food there.  also begging will win you food sometimes or money.  there are more deatails but i've already written so much.

 

posted by myblog, September 16, 2003 21:10 | link | comments (1)

another thing that bugs me... it seems as if josh and greg like to use their depression to get attention.  they get a real kick out of people noticing they aren't feeling great.  i find that disgusting for a lot of different reasons but then on the other hand i think that the reason they are upset the most is because they feel as if they are all alone in the world and when they get attention it tells them otherwise.... but still i think all of that is sick.  how depressed are you when you wear your depression around like a badge, as if you were proud of it....

posted by myblog, September 16, 2003 01:57 | link | comments (1)

my mom continually fails to parent correctly...  she never learned that you shouldn't make a big deal outta of things that aren't.  i think if she had always taken this philosophy i would be a lot more open with her... o well it is just as well.  she really is intelligent enough to be open with and no this isn't just a teenager who thinks he is always right.  my dad is definitely smart enough to be open with and there are a lot of other adults i respect in that aspect but my mom really has no grasp on life.

posted by myblog, September 16, 2003 01:54 | link | comments

Monday, 15 September 2003

friends can really work wonders.  me and one of my friends talked for about an hour last night about how shitty everything was and blowing our brains out... it was an interesting talk but i was pretty down last night.  so when i showed up at school immediately one of my friends started talkign with me and then as i was walking through the hall josh (the friend i was talking to about blowing our brains out) was like "HEY OWEN, nice to see your alive still!"  it was funny.  it also really improved my mood immediately.  yay for friends.

posted by myblog, September 15, 2003 20:09 | link | comments (1)

so i when am i going to start living my life? or will i be stuck in this mode of wanting to live a certain life that is just out of reach forever....

posted by myblog, September 15, 2003 01:59 | link | comments

ok the anger is residing and now i can't write about what i wanted to write about...   school... it is killing me.   so i've decided that unfortunately i've wasted the last 12 years of my life. *tear*  yes,  it is a sad thing they say that youth is wasted on the young but i believe youth is wasted in school.  today i came to the realization that whatever it is i do with my life nothing i desire to do would i have needed to go to school.  also i've realized that throughout all the memories of our lives and all the important moments, none of them have been because of school (the academic or scholarly part) and i believe it is the same for everyone else.  we all spend 16 years in school and then the rest of our lives working (generally) when what is important in life is none of that.  what is important is the people we are with and our relationships with them.  this is where memories belong and defining moments are made.  yet life marches on, wasting day after day.  and through these 16 years in highschool the only thing i will gain from it that has any meaning to my life is memories of friends and experiences (absolutely nothing that deals directly with school).  sigh... another wasted youth.

posted by myblog, September 15, 2003 00:35 | link | comments

well i did have inspiration to write something ... then i talked to my mom for 20 minutes.  now i'm just pissed off.

posted by myblog, September 15, 2003 00:20 | link | comments

Saturday, 13 September 2003

well i just got back from "vacation"  and i was reading some blogs and was thinking,"the blogging community seems to be very liberal".  you think so?

posted by myblog, September 13, 2003 19:17 | link | comments

Wednesday, 10 September 2003

so i was going to write about how i was down tonight for some reason but after i read my friends journal (who only writes about how shitty he feels) i've decided that is not the way to win readers... not that i have any readers, i was just thinking.  all he likes to do is complain.  it's definitely a downer. oo i got a story but you will need to know a little background before i tell it.  Last year after school one day our principle anounced that the confederate flag would not be allowed on school grounds (yes a lot of kids wave it with pride at my school *tear*).  well this was a big deal for the kids at my school that take pride in their huge flags they fly from the bed of the truck they drive to school everyday.  so the best known racist at our school (joe, who happened to be in my grade) was especially pissed off and apparentely went speeding off home.  well, tragically, he wrecked and killed himself after school (in effect that rule never ended up being enforced).  may he rest in peace.  although i didn't care much for the ingorant kid.  so to the story.... me and two other friends of mine(josh and mike) get outta school early everyday because we are taking college courses and the college isn't in session yet.  so we go back to josh's house and hang out.  that day the principle had introduced herself to each class. so we were all pretty unhappy with the principle and we were trying to think of ways to annoy her and avoid her dumb rules.  one of the rules was we had to register our cars with the school if we were going to drive.  she made a point to say that if we did anything wrong we would lose our privilege to drive to school.  so my solution to that was, the first person to lose their privileges had to drive home all pissed off that day and wreck and kill themselves.  mike replies "o yea, pull a joe".  man it was funny.  i could not stop laughing as horrible as that is.  it was still funny.  well not just funny but hilarious, now that i think about it you probably had to be there to truly appreciate it.

 

posted by myblog, September 10, 2003 01:42 | link | comments (1)

Tuesday, 09 September 2003

i must write something but i haven't had any revelations.... i suppose my brain is stuck in stagnation.

posted by myblog, September 09, 2003 01:21 | link | comments

Monday, 08 September 2003

i hate math.  the only subject you can spend hours working at and have nothing to show for it.  there is nothing else you can work at and have that result.  so i've decided to save myself the trouble and just not work at it and here i am typing in my blog. ha ha ha ha ha ha

posted by myblog, September 08, 2003 00:19 | link | comments (2)

Sunday, 07 September 2003

so last night i hung out with my friend greg who was the only friend to hang out with because alex and josh hung out with their girlfriends.  i can understand why alex is dating teri at all and i can only half way understand why josh is dating rebekah.  So greg has been very negative and depressed ever since his girlfriend broke up with him and especially when he is in the same vicinity as her.  I think they all need to take realities checks.  none of them have the ability to be happy with themselves so they are dependent upon other people to make them happy.  i find a lot of the things they do disgusting.  for example: if teri calls alex and they are talking on the phone he will not let her go, regardless.  i've been over at his house numerous times when she has called and he will just talk with her for hours while i'm over.  then josh has made plans with us and then dtiched us when his girlfriend was free.  also he is completely against christianity yet because his girlfriends parents ask him to go to church with them he goes... all the time.  it's very disgusting.   

posted by myblog, September 07, 2003 20:39 | link | comments

Saturday, 06 September 2003

yes we lost again.. not only did we lose but we got our asses kicked.  and of course our greedy offensive coordinator decided to screw me over again (second time in three games) even though this is the first week my i've been kicking that my leg hasn't been injured. o well so it goes.  only seven more games.  The buckeyes also played like shit today winning by three.  then at school on friday the new principle had meetings with every class to introduce herself and her thoughts.  yes she is going to be a bitch this year.  Our last principle was really cool but this one is a righteous conservative christian who feels the need to force her beliefs on all of us.  She is getting rid of exam waivers because "you don't get that in college" but then isn't allowing any pda except hand holding (only cause it was already allowed)and she plans on getting rid of that next year.  Not only does that simulate college "real well" but we all know how pda interferes with the learning process.  hell i get turned on seeing people holding hands and after all it is the best foreplay to sex.  before you know it people are going to be fucking in the hall.  so then she goes on to say how "what you girls wear these days really leaves nothing to the imagination" and how she is going to make the dress code much stricter.  but honestly we all know that how people dress has nothign to do with how easily we can learn.  everyone knows that and the only exception is in very very extreme cases.  the truth is the reason people are all about dress code is because they want to enforce their morals and beliefs on you which really pisses me off.  now honestly none of that applies to me or will have much effect on me but it's just the principle of it all.   and of course through all of this she mentions about 15 times how if there are any disagreements or problems she ALWAYS wins!!  as if there has to be a winner and loser in those situations.  that is just a great attitude to have with students and a great way to get to know them on the first day they meet you.  also i'm sure there is more to the stories because a large amount of teachers hate her.  i've heard comments from three teachers expressing their dislike towards her already.  so basically we plan on causing as much trouble as possible.  we were thinking about putting up signs saying "MISSING"  with a picture of our last principle underneath that and her last known whereabouts.  also we were thinking about getting everyone to boycott school lunches because they are required to provide them and they raised prices on everything dure to being in debt from last year with lunch.  we also own a key that can open all the lockers but we haven't been able to think of a good idea to use it for... any suggestions?  most 3 outta 4 of my teachers are cool though this year so it shouldn't be too bad.  i will just have a shitload of homework.  yeeha. 

posted by myblog, September 06, 2003 18:31 | link | comments

Thursday, 04 September 2003

So today was the first day of school.... wow it's going to suck this year.  but i don't want to talk about school.  tonight i went out with some friends to buy a really expensive calculator and we decided to spend about an hour in staples testing out their office chairs and discussing how last year was so much better than this year will be.   then on the way home we picked up a construction cone and left it in front of another one of my friends' house.  and between then and dropping off Greg i was almost in another car accident.  i'm trying to turn left on this road but i'm waiting for a truck that is going the opposite direction and the truck just starts getting slowly coming over in my lane well pulled my car way off to the side and the truck basically brushed by.  i think if it had been a car our side mirrors would've hit but since the truck sits higher they didn't.  scared the fuck outta me.  but i suppose those things happen (all too often).

posted by myblog, September 04, 2003 00:48 | link | comments

Tuesday, 02 September 2003

funny things that have happened to the place kicker... well i'm not sure about the funniest but today at practice it was raining really bad and the snapper was having trouble getting the ball back to the holder because it was raining and the field was basically a big mud puddle.  so today one of the snaps didn't get back very quickly but i thought i could still kick it, unfortunately my holder didn't think so.  instead of putting the ball down he picked it up and ran with it and i swung right through completely missing the ball.   then on another snap it came back really slow and when the ball was placed the bottom slid out so it was laying horizontally on the ground and i kicked it right into the back of someone on the line.  and as i was standing there someone on scout team that had fallen down slid into the back of my knees and knocked me down.  also, once on kickoff when it was really wet i took my running start and planted my foot but my foot had other plans and just kept on sliding.  needless to say the ball didn't really go anywhere and i landed on my ass.

posted by myblog, September 02, 2003 21:59 | link | comments

The trials and tribulations of being a place kicker.... well honestly its pretty damn easy.  anyone could probably do it so i guess i don't have much to complain about.  goddamnit ... we start school tomorrow.  one more fucking year, just one more ...  i'm having a really hard time deciding where to apply to cause it is so freakin difficult to find information on colleges does anyone have any suggestions or thoughts about the college they went to or know about.  i would really like to hear.

posted by myblog, September 02, 2003 20:49 | link | comments (1)

i've decided reading blogs is depressing becaue it lets you know how many really cool people are out there and yet i can't hardly find any really cool people.  damn rural ohio and small schools.

posted by myblog, September 02, 2003 15:04 | link | comments

watched fight club again last night.  i fell asleep at the beginning though.  it's a really good movie i would suggest it to anyone. (although probably not everyone would like it).  so some great movies...  "fight club" ; "the matrix" ; "life is beautiful" ; "monty python's search for the holy grail"..... and the only other movie i can think of is just really good not great "momento".  has anyone here read "the perks of being a wallflower"?  that's a really good book or how about "another roadside attraction".  i just recently read that it's a really good book too.  well off to practice... sigh...

posted by myblog, September 02, 2003 14:59 | link | comments

Monday, 01 September 2003

i just noticed my "quick story" was one of my longest entries lol.

posted by myblog, September 01, 2003 23:48 | link | comments

ok so tell me this...  i would love being in a band ... making music, performing, and being able to survive just doing that.  so how do you know when to follow what you really want to do and when what you really want to do is sorta ridiculous cause you probably won't ever actually be able to do it (like playing professional sports)? 

posted by myblog, September 01, 2003 23:35 | link | comments

more about my history...  i was reading someone else's blog that was pretty cool and he/she mentioned how he/she was "scarred from his/her parents divorce.. lol" or something like that cause he/she couldn't even remember his parents being together.  so i was thinking about my parents divorcing and how i was "scarred" from it because i only have two memories from my parents being together.  the first is when we were all eating dinner as a family and i got sent to my room and i could hear my parents arguing over my punishment cause one thought it was wrong to punish me that way but the other disagreed.  and my second memory is during the divorce when our family was discussing whether i would live with my mom or my dad and i was told i was going to live with my dad and i threw a fit saying how i wanted to live with my dad... kinda weird memories i guess.  but it's really not as sad as you might think.  in fact i don't think of it as sad at all.  what i think is sad is that my mom is going to live by herself for a long time.  no companion for her.  it is sad because i can't stand being around her really so she is by herself a lot.  and i don't see anyone living with her any time soon cause she is very hard to live with.  it's almost as if i can understand my dad for cheating on her but i feel bad for thinking that lol.

posted by myblog, September 01, 2003 23:24 | link | comments (1)

it's pretty stupid to like a girl that you won't ever get with.  but then can i help it.  although isn't part of maturing being able to "help it". yea probably

posted by myblog, September 01, 2003 19:26 | link | comments

any suggestions on how to get over girls besides finding another or just giving it time?  didn't think so

posted by myblog, September 01, 2003 18:51 | link | comments (1)