everyone else on this site is much better at expressing my thoughts than i am.  i think part of the attraction of blogging is that it is much easier to feel like you can relate to someone else.  in reality everyone is so much different from ourselves.  in the blogging world so many people are so similar (or at least have similar thoughts).

republicans play dirty:  Kenneth Blackwell pays for an advertising campaign to tell everyone with television ads just how important their votes are, then what does he do..... he rules that provisional ballots can only be used in your own precinct.  so if you go to the wrong polling location you may not vote there, you must drive the your polling location.  so what is the point of the provisional ballot? ....... As the election draws near we get more and more stories of voter disenfranchisement. there is trouble brewing.........

i feel pretty confident about john kerry winning the election

wow that last entry was strange... and really hard to make any sense of

i don't understand office politics.  i don't understand petty disagreements with people on the same team.  although it is obvious these will occur.  so what i don't understand most of all is why an organization can structure itself in such a way that allows those things to happen.  why are the republicans so good at what they do, cause they do it right.  how can a candidate for president be leading in the polls in every category but one and even that category is close and lose the election?  because the opponents realize it is not policy that matters.   this is why people can sell a pair of pants that look dirty for 60 bucks, this is why people can sell teeth whitening, beanie babies and plethora of other things.  i've decided i hate marketing, i hate the manipulation, i could never do it my whole life but if someone doesn't do it now and in the future.... sigh.  i also realize that i'm not very good at being a part of the system... i mean yea i do everything i'm asked as best i can without complaing (very much) and i'm certainly not the one plugging up this system... but on a more personal level, if so much wasn't at stake, i wouldn't be here and that is how you know you are really committed, when you know there is anything else you'd rather be doing.  as much as i would like to be a leader that will always keep me from being a leader like sean.  he is so committed to this project he radiates his commitment on every level.  you can tell i'm not as committed just because i'm not like that.  so it's a damn good thing he is the boss and not me.  i don't think i'll ever really fit into a system like this, with bosses and management and orders of hierarchy... the type  of system that isn't as qualitatively good and effective but productive and efficient ( the type of organization needed for quick sprints to a finish line and beating competition). although on the other hand i do like it cause it is just impossible to not get those people that must be ordered and must have a boss to work.  i guess i just see the whole organization as a personal gains sorta thing because each individual is much more attached to their own struggle for power and responsibility rather than being attached to the success of the organization.  although everyone here says "we're on the same team" i can see it in the volunteers in their little territorial squabbles about what other people should be allowed to do or what they should be doing.  sigh that is not a team attitude.  but like i said how can you have a team attitude when you feel more attached to your personal gains than the team's gains.  but then on the other hand when everyone has a personal gain in the organization it can be good also rather than bringing down the organization to bring yourself up in it you can bring the organization up to make your boss notice you and bring you up in the organization.  as many problems as i see in the organization and as many suggestions as i would like to make... not being in power myself i must accept it is being run as well as possible (although i will try to convince myself that, i don't know if i will ever believe it in any organization i am in)

ok i shall post tonight.  i've been working on the kerry campaign.... it is crazy but things are looking good.  I wouldn't call it fun exactly but it is interesting.  and when i said crazy i'll tell you what i mean.  crazy is working at least 16 hours a day 7 days a week.  not eating meals cause there is not break for meals.  grabbing a pop eating a cookie every now and then.   but like i said it is interesting and there are 26 days till election.  that day will be truly insane.  the people are interesting though.  i only have a few problems with the whole thing but mostly things are ok.   kerry kicked ass in the debate though.  I think the only reason people thought that was because this time they actually expected something from george w whereas usually as long as he doesn't trip over the podium it is a win.  here's some good quotes from the debate "i know saddam hus-- i mean osama bin laden attacked us, i know that"  "it's hard work" all my opponent does is send "mexed missages"  sigh...