more about my history...  i was reading someone else's blog that was pretty cool and he/she mentioned how he/she was "scarred from his/her parents divorce.. lol" or something like that cause he/she couldn't even remember his parents being together.  so i was thinking about my parents divorcing and how i was "scarred" from it because i only have two memories from my parents being together.  the first is when we were all eating dinner as a family and i got sent to my room and i could hear my parents arguing over my punishment cause one thought it was wrong to punish me that way but the other disagreed.  and my second memory is during the divorce when our family was discussing whether i would live with my mom or my dad and i was told i was going to live with my dad and i threw a fit saying how i wanted to live with my dad... kinda weird memories i guess.  but it's really not as sad as you might think.  in fact i don't think of it as sad at all.  what i think is sad is that my mom is going to live by herself for a long time.  no companion for her.  it is sad because i can't stand being around her really so she is by herself a lot.  and i don't see anyone living with her any time soon cause she is very hard to live with.  it's almost as if i can understand my dad for cheating on her but i feel bad for thinking that lol.