ok the anger is residing and now i can't write about what i wanted to write about...   school... it is killing me.   so i've decided that unfortunately i've wasted the last 12 years of my life. *tear*  yes,  it is a sad thing they say that youth is wasted on the young but i believe youth is wasted in school.  today i came to the realization that whatever it is i do with my life nothing i desire to do would i have needed to go to school.  also i've realized that throughout all the memories of our lives and all the important moments, none of them have been because of school (the academic or scholarly part) and i believe it is the same for everyone else.  we all spend 16 years in school and then the rest of our lives working (generally) when what is important in life is none of that.  what is important is the people we are with and our relationships with them.  this is where memories belong and defining moments are made.  yet life marches on, wasting day after day.  and through these 16 years in highschool the only thing i will gain from it that has any meaning to my life is memories of friends and experiences (absolutely nothing that deals directly with school).  sigh... another wasted youth.