she's a good girl, loves her momma and jesus too...  so goes another day.  what happened today? well, three tests happened today.  but that is boring... hmmm  i was thinking a little while ago that it is strange how often i wonder when i'll meet that special person.  i'm reading herman hesse's "goldmund and narcissus"  and it lead me to the realization that i've never been in love.  i used to wonder about it but that shows even more clearly that i've never been in love.  i suppose once you have it you know it... that is kinda sad i guess... but ya know we all spend most of our lives alone anyways so i should get used to it and learn how i can make myself the most happy....  which leads me to the thought... i realize through reading other teenager's blogs tha this "depression" we all go through during our teenager years is mostly attributed to the belief that wee need certain things to be happy,  that we don't make our own happiness which i truly don't believe now.  i think we can be happy in any situation if we know ourselves well enough.  well that's my thought for now... i'm drawing blanks... check out the book "another roadside attraction", it's good.