i think relationships waste a lot of brainpower and time ya know.... for a long time i wasn't in contact with a girl and just recently i have been back in contact with her.... i've always like her so much but i was able to mostly forget about her and now i find myself thinking about her often... too often for someone i will not be able to ever really have a relationship with.  so now i can't put any of my good thoughts in here because i think about nothing else... just wasting my time thinking about something pointless that actually makes me unhappy to think about....