so i guess i will write about why today is an important day for me.... it is the two year anniversary of the most defining moment in my life.... that's all i have to say about tonight.  although awhile ago i heard from a third party that one of my friends believes i have become a lot more depressed and cynical since that night two years ago.... i hadn't noticed till he said something to me but i suppose it could be true (i'm really not completely sure when i became like that).   although i believe i have changed and am a more positive person these days.  ever since that night though i always wonder how many people at this very moment are experiencing the worst moment of their lives or are in the greatest pain they have ever been in and vice versa.... how many people are falling in love tonight or finding inner peace?  it's kinda like how when i'm driving by houses with the lights on i wonder what those people's lives are like or what they are doing, watching tv? beating their spouses?  masturbating?  i like doing people watching too.... sitting in a busy area and watch people run about like ants.... it's interesting thinking about how many "significant" moments people have in their lives but realize you will never hear about most people's and they will just disappear into history.  showing how insignificant their "significant" moments really are.... *tear*