i always become depressed when doing anything having to do with college because i have to confront my standardized test scores.  i've always associated myself with being smart but my scores would speak differently and when i got them it was sort of an identity crisis because of how much i've associated myself with intelligence.  the whole experience really left me in the dumps for a long time and was just extremely depressing..... i suppose it could be good for my personal growth in the long run but it makes it damn hard to get into the college i want and i think it contributes to my procrastination of applying to colleges.