so my last entry i think goes right along with my entry about  being conceited... it is all those thoughts (associating myself with being intelligent and stuff) that makes me wonder if i'm conceited.  i keep coming to the realization or thought anyways that i'm not that smart and i just can' accept it.  i can accept i'm not athletic, i'm not hot, etc but for some reason the idea that i'm not smart really bothers me.  another reason that i was wondering about being conceited.  it all just doesn't make much sense i guess.