ok so i'm trying to figure out.... what is my obsession with depressing, frustrating, or angry music? why don't i listen to happy music, upbeat music or just like content music at least (if ya know what i mean). why would you listen to something that makes you sad.... in fact i like to listen to music that makes me sad. how's that for an oxymoron.... i like to be sad? no no i dont' just the music... it is very real... but when i say it like that it makes the happy music seem fake or not very real. but perhaps that isn't it perhaps i just can't feel the happy music... ya know how you can feel certain music.... gives ya that feeling.... and i just can't feel happy music... so why the hell is that.... anyways on a different subject... a lot of people would say that they would "die for their country" and that is considered honorable and all and i think i would probably also do that but when we rephrase it to state what it really means, would you "kill for your country" how many people would do that? i don't know if i would do that.... and in all honesty that's what these people are doing (soldiers), they are killing for their country....