this post was inspired by ava http://somedayunderground.blogdrive.com/  she talks about losing herself in something and that is how you make yourself feel good... by like transceding yourself for something bigger... and i when i thought about that i can see what she was saying but then on the other hand it bugs me when i'm like that... when i have to sort of exit reality to feel good.  it is like drinking if you ask me, ya know, sorta like getting drunk to forget about the world around us for awhile... why can't we be happy doing everyday things... why must we have to be part of something bigger, why can't we be happy knowing this is all there is to life.  there isn't a god that will give us eternal happiness or realize that being famous may be remembered for a few generations but eventually you will be forgotten... or perhaps i just don't understand