a great thing about a blog is there is no proofreading and revising... i think i have decided that involve a lot of or are based around drinking are dysfunctional, now this may seem obvious to a lot of people but i think it isn't just whether or not the drinking is detrimental to the people but i think the relationship can be dysfunctional and the people involved not really feel negative affects... i guess i've sorta come to the conclusion that when you drink you sorta put yourself in a glossed up world, an unreality and if your relationships with certain people are only in that world then how can you tell if anything about that relationship is real or good at all.  you will know your good relationships when the relationship can lasts or is worth it without slipping into a glossed up world... now all this may seem obvious but it is just really something that occurred to me... it seems as if people that drink a lot end up just having fucked up relationships with everyone around them... ther eis nothing there except the drinking, i've always said that a lot of people have to drink when they hang out cause they just aren't entertaining enough to eachother when they are still in reality... ok i still feel as if i haven't quite captured the thought that i'm thinking...