Seventy times seven - brand new the truth is i've never been able to relate to this song like i can now ever word makes sense. clear as newly polished glass.

this is the first time in a long time i've felt like blowing my brains all over the wall.  this happens all to quickly.  it is strange how we can feel that sinking emotion in our chest like it is about to implode... i despise people the most when i despise myself and right now i have no faith in anyone.  she avoided the question cause she was afraid of what answering it would do but the truth is the stab wound was gouged deepest by avoiding the question. it's not her fault.  i'm nto going to be able to sleep because of this minor irrelevance.  the food in my stomach, the clothes on my back, the shelter over my head, and i'm not going to be able to sleep because of myself. i've lost my sense of humor.  no one will talk about this. ever. thisbumpintheroadthati'vetrippedoverandnowfeellikei'mfallingintoanabyss. how i'd die for a little more perspective but doubt it would make a difference. this is a post i won't understand tomorrow.