i don't think i understand what it means to not be alone... right now, when i am thinking about it, i don't know if i have ever had knowledge of what it is like to not be alone, it seems more as if i've stumbled over it in the dark but never really known what it is like, so i've been wondering if we are always alone till we die.  i mean we have friends and stuff but is the void of loneliness ever completely filled or will we always feel that twitch for something perhaps it isn't even for other people maybe it is something else but i don't know if that ever goes away, it like filling this void is a step in my life that i can't get over because i can't even imagine what i would be pursuing afterwards if i were to fill this void.... what's left to accomplish, do we just sit around and bask in the victory or is there some other major struggle afterwards