"it's not worth sarcrificing your soul for a paycheck"  compliments of http://windswept.motime.com... ugh i'm sick of the world at the moment.... nothing has any inherent meaning...  you can't prove anything... i've been stuck at this fork in the road for too long... should i live my life by ideals that are impossible to follow or sell our for a reality that is way too grey... can't pin down this feeling i have and i don't know how i'm going to get rid of it if i don't know what it is.  it is just seems like i get an empty feeling believing what i believe and then i just can't buy into anything else... i just can't believe it.  i can't believe there is someting more to this life... i don't know why that is such a bad thing.  we live we die.  why does that leave me empty, why do i keep searching for more.  i've thought about the other stuff.  it doesnt change things and it sure as hell isn't believable.  i'm sorry i don't feel things like other people.  when i look at the stars at night i feel small an insignificant just like we are.  when i look at a sunset i see the beauty in living for today. when i hang out with friends i experience the escapism that is our lives.  when i sit around thinking about things i get that feeling... like i'm searching a search that will never be fulfilled.