this is necessary blogging i think and what will drag me back.  i saw fahrenheit 9/11 last night and it wasn't what i expected.  much different.  i expected the movie just to mke me more angry and upset with the bush administration.  that's not what happened, it was much more than that.  i left the movie feeling completely strung out.  i was figuratively exhausted from the intensity of the movie.  it messes with your emotions.  and so after sleeping it off i wake up this morning and read the news yet again.  right now in another country there is a systematic ethnic cleansing going on, classified as the worst human rights crisis in the world right now, and everyone is dilly-dallying about what stopping it.  there is no room for pause when dealing with things like this, something the world should've learned after rwanda.  we elect leaders that can't rise to the occasion, leaders that sit around for 7 minutes thinking who knows what during a terrible crisis.  sigh how we all know kerry won't be great but better yes.  i gained a lot of respect for kerry after seeing the movie.  he has been to war.  he was a courageous man who earned four purple hearts while witnessing the travesty of what war means.  perhaps if bush watched fahrenheit 9/11 he would get an idea of what it meant to send young men over to iraq because he does not know.   that is one thing i can credit kerry with he saw it all and was deeply affected by it.  he sacrificed a great future (graduating from yale from a wealthy family) and took a chance at being killed because he thought it was right then realized exactly what it meant and took part in the ceremonial act of throwing his medals back over the white house fence.  yea he may not be a great president but he will at least think before sacrficing thousands of other people's lives.