got my official rejection letter from oberlin today. i think it is funny how the letters say that i will experience success at the college i end up going to and how i can consider transferring next year. ha. no i didn't get into a college i really wanted to go to so i'm not going. there will not be a successful happy academic career ahead of me this next year. nope. i will be what colleges despise, the uneducated worker, experiencing life. before i give it all another shot next year. i wonder what i will do when i don't get into any colleges i really want to go to again. settle i suppose. the idea makes me sick to my stomach. compromise and settle is something i never really wanted to do with my life. i see all these people that ended up in all these different places, forgotten their dreams and aspiration, doing something because they could.... i wonder if it is unavoidable though... we'll just have to see