i don't understand office politics.  i don't understand petty disagreements with people on the same team.  although it is obvious these will occur.  so what i don't understand most of all is why an organization can structure itself in such a way that allows those things to happen.  why are the republicans so good at what they do, cause they do it right.  how can a candidate for president be leading in the polls in every category but one and even that category is close and lose the election?  because the opponents realize it is not policy that matters.   this is why people can sell a pair of pants that look dirty for 60 bucks, this is why people can sell teeth whitening, beanie babies and plethora of other things.  i've decided i hate marketing, i hate the manipulation, i could never do it my whole life but if someone doesn't do it now and in the future.... sigh.  i also realize that i'm not very good at being a part of the system... i mean yea i do everything i'm asked as best i can without complaing (very much) and i'm certainly not the one plugging up this system... but on a more personal level, if so much wasn't at stake, i wouldn't be here and that is how you know you are really committed, when you know there is anything else you'd rather be doing.  as much as i would like to be a leader that will always keep me from being a leader like sean.  he is so committed to this project he radiates his commitment on every level.  you can tell i'm not as committed just because i'm not like that.  so it's a damn good thing he is the boss and not me.  i don't think i'll ever really fit into a system like this, with bosses and management and orders of hierarchy... the type  of system that isn't as qualitatively good and effective but productive and efficient ( the type of organization needed for quick sprints to a finish line and beating competition). although on the other hand i do like it cause it is just impossible to not get those people that must be ordered and must have a boss to work.  i guess i just see the whole organization as a personal gains sorta thing because each individual is much more attached to their own struggle for power and responsibility rather than being attached to the success of the organization.  although everyone here says "we're on the same team" i can see it in the volunteers in their little territorial squabbles about what other people should be allowed to do or what they should be doing.  sigh that is not a team attitude.  but like i said how can you have a team attitude when you feel more attached to your personal gains than the team's gains.  but then on the other hand when everyone has a personal gain in the organization it can be good also rather than bringing down the organization to bring yourself up in it you can bring the organization up to make your boss notice you and bring you up in the organization.  as many problems as i see in the organization and as many suggestions as i would like to make... not being in power myself i must accept it is being run as well as possible (although i will try to convince myself that, i don't know if i will ever believe it in any organization i am in)