i sense the depression all around me.  and, i feel it.  i try to take solace in the fact that other people are feeling the same but i can't get it out of my head that there are more people that don't feel the same.  i'm asking myself questions like, "what is democracy when policy doesn't matter?"  "can we really change the world?"  "where will i be next year....?" "how will i retire"  "how is everyone that already couldn't afford their prescription medicines going to make it the next four years?" "will this truly be as catastrophic as it seems?"  I've lost security, it was taken from me in a single day.  I've lost idealism, "how can so many people devote so much time to a good fight and lose?" I've lost hope for a fair world "who will protect these people in love when the law will not?"  I've considered forgetting it all and self-indulging "why not enjoy life if you can't change it?"  Someone on the campaign said to me "you are too young to be jaded" well i wasn't really jaded then but now i'm not to sure.  i've been doing some serious soul-searching this last week and have been trying to avoid admitting that i am depressed.  i can not get politics off my mind and it is seriously depressing. if we don't believe democracy works... what next.  i'm depressed ... what now world?